Here I am :)

So M back...yeah had a lil sabbatical out dere, actually I dunno wots wrong with me, I start writing a post n in da middle of it, just wipe everything and switch off. Its scary now:) well dunno if this post too will see the light of the day hmmm..
So as it is that life is in a kinda sorta stable state now, well if u could call "I know-where-I-wanna-go" a stable state. CAT result was dismal, n that was very expected. I took CAT so that I could have a certain kind of closure from MICA. I had always maintained I cannot enter that institute, but it seemed others had a lot more faith in me than I had in myself. Let everyone down...hehehe:) wen will dey stop expecting man!
But you see got through SNAP...as in was shortlisted for SIMC (dats kinda my level ahem ahem), saw the result on 22nd nite, the GD was on 24th morning in Pune. It wasnt impossible to reach but I had my reasons not to go. Lesse wotever happens to those reasons/ideas. Atleast one of them should materialize this year (Please!) It should be Delhi, Mumbai or Chennai this time varna main gussa ho jaungi! huh!
yeah one more thing, my appraisal is here..da same old shit.."she is not using her ful potential"..oh man! I m sick n tired of hearing it being told to again and again. Do they even realize if I want to use my full potential? duh. As if:)
Jan had its exciting times too...the main was my Bombay trip..oooooooooh! gotta tel in detail in my next blog. It deserves a whole post to it man! chalo cya den til my nxt post:)
PS: Well u see YV asked my name that day...hehehe..tera jaadoo chal gaya! lol

state of me:)

Well...din have nething specific 2 write..its jus that time of da yr..oops i jus spoilt my shoes n created a mess..LOL! dat godforsaken cup n tray fell down..whatever...I have got 11 days leave from office! 11 freakin days at home..come to think of it..havent really spent dat kinda time at home in a long time..feels great! well u see, when u work so hard 2 create n atmosphere at office dat u'l die if u don get these leaves..it seems well deserved..me jus goin 2 give CAT..as usual, my prep is zero n I really don care..actually but den being serious for CAT gave me da reqd diwali hols, wherin I cn party hard..I am hoping dat none of u bloggers r from my company
ooohhh! da view outside is spell binding man! ya i know u cnt make head n tail outta it..but me trying 2 be very eclectic in my blog..long time I wrote 1...hmmm. office is crappy...lifes tough man. the exam times r near..I still make up my mind if I wanna go 2 bombay or not..sumthin abt leaving da good ol'delhi gives me da creeps. I jus wish I get thru my dream coll in delhi man..lets c. that day sum1 asked me what I wud really want rite nw, u know, like da 1 wish u want fulfilled n I said IIMC..wud give nething 2 sit in ganga dhaba n have tea dere..love da place...mmmm
So m I sounding too wistful...? I am man..if only...

I love my work...hmmm do I??

Diary entry for Oct 4th 2007



She: Boss..I have never made ne mistakes in my entire tenure in your organization..



Boss: That’s also not a very good thing



She < smiling to herself> : yes sir..



Boss: You have no point to prove in here



She : Yes sir



Sigh! The things we do for money….



There are people who like some people and therefore push them forward..its a very human emotion and obviously demands no justification…but yeah when your boss starts doing that to you, you actually start questioning this very innocent emotion…



I experienced this firsthand yesterday…seriously Alanis Morrisette is so right when she says “you live..you learn”…until yesterday I never knew that someone can actually overlook all that what you have done and all that what you are because he ‘favors’ someone else over you. Few months into corporate world and I have come to believe that your conscience actually starts dying the day you enter into a corp world…like fluid from a bottle, which slowly ebb if u leave the cap open…yeah something like that. Okkk coming back to yesterday:



My crappy asshole manager pointed out a very silly mistake of mine, the point out was done by emailing me, my Shift Lead, my other team members and my super manager…I wrote a reply back…asking for clarifications…well, it all culminated into a meeting with my super manager, shift lead and me…I went with all the mistakes that have been made by other ‘favorites’of my manager . The naïve me actually thought that I would be heard..The meeting started n 10 mins into it I wanted to kick myself for sitting there in flesh and form. It was so filmy that I smiled, telling myself that a bigger asshole has not taken birth on this Planet...I was told things like at a managerial position , you might miss somethings and that may be the reason why the mistakes of my colleagues were not pointed out. I wanted tell them that dude that’s why you draw 7 lacs p.a…to screw people’s happiness…great! The super manager also went ahead and said that there was no point in me writing that email for clarifications..."What did you get out of it?"





I excused myself from the meeting abruptly…something inside me said..’sorry..no more’



Went in the washroom and shouted all the gaalis I knew < n I knew quite a lot> to the great people of my organization.



Came and started working again.



Again I say…The things we do for money…makes me wanna think, is money really not all that important???

Bachelorette of the month...LOL!

Wait...lemme laugh first he he he

So the story is that we have a magazine at our office that selects one guy n a gal to be the bachelor and bachelorette of the month, basically what happens is that when the publishing date approaches near, the market communication team gets all panicky and randomly picks up someone they know and who sorta kinda fits the bill and jus pasteshim/her there...

So this month it was me...lol!
I received a call from the Marcomm team stating that I am "the chosen one this month"...my reply din really go well with her cuz I went okaay...there was a pause when a " congratulations!!!" was lost sumwhere in the windpipe (chuckle!)...wotever she told me that she has mailed me some questions as part of the "interview" that would be published in the magazine and I need to respond to it asap...hmmm. interview...sounded good..I agreed n waited to got to office n read the mail.

The interview questions were hillarious!
They asked me questions like what qualities i wanted in my partner...really? were they selling them by the dozen? and this was the award winning one " what wud you do to make your partner happy?" okay i wont discuss what answers i wanted to give to that;)...lol!

They wanted a Photo too...well I was wise enuf not to do that. I didnt want the few people reading the interview to question the marcomm people's decision, its another thing that I myself question it;)

So I am waiting for the magazine's next edition(obvious..)...as eagerly as a new actor awaits the release of his first movie (man the analogy!)...jus that I know this one's gonna bomb at the box!

The embarrasment that followed...lol!

So you mus have read the first blog(this is an eligibility criterion to read what follows...)



I met my frn that day( arrey Sonali...) and told her that I have written a blog about all the previous "incidents" that took place regards she setting setting me up...I told her that it is to be taken with a pinch of salt and to be forgotten after you have read them(note: thats the important point). She became all excited...went all "wow!..more blogs, grt..will read them and give my comments"(which are nowhere to be seen surprisingly). I told her the site n all, n as usual, forgot about it.

So that day, all of us were at Pizza Hut, hanging out..having steaming hot pizzaz and pasta(Ummmm...) when again my setting up story became the "hot topic of discussion" amongst us...We were laughing and the atmosphere was really funny...until my frn(suddenly remembering this teeny weeny detail) came out with this revealation "oh! that blog that you wrote...I sent it across to(u know who!)"

What happened next will be described in slow motion..

A big spoonful of "pasta with chicken arabiatta sauce"which could have ended in my stomach ended in the bowl...a spurt of coughing followed and in between that the big question "WHAT???" emerged...loud and clear, for everyone to hear. Well, people at pizza hut gave a 'huh!?'look to me and resumed with their food...I know, I know the world has become insensitive to other people's miseries now...(sigh!)

I was embarraaaassed. My god! couldnt believe it was happening to me...The thoughts of the ideas that the guy wud have got in his head came flashing in my mind...come on guys...that was a funny post! not meant to be published to that one particular person...bu hu hu(in chacha chowdhary comics this translates to crying:D)

After those OTT actions and reactions I still thought that Sonali would temme "Chill! U think I would do sucha thing?" and matter would be laid to rest..but nothing like that happened. From time to time someone wud luk at me n go "aww...koi baat nahi...it doesnt really matter" and then give the wickedest smirk they cud muster. After a while, I joined my friends in making fun of myself...what??? had nothing better to do...man! come to think about it...isintít funny??

LOL!! feel like rolling on the floor on the fool that I have made myself:-D

ps: btw something nice did happen after this...now I dont have to scratch my chin and look all thoughtfull everytime someone asks me my "most embarrassing moment"lol! aah! I am satisfied...Hmmm

setting up...

Once I was browsing for books in teksons book store(big show off...i buy all the books from the roadside shops of Palika! but then I did say browsing..) I came across this book which said that the best way to hook up with someone is to be 'set up' by a friend. This looked realy amusing to me, I thought wow! thats simple...looked at the book one more time and kept it back on the shelf. The book went back to the shelf but the idea remained. I went hmmmm abt it the whole day...until one day..
My very close frn called me one day telling me about her friend whom she felt would be great for me. I never gave it a serious thought, thought shes on one of her trips and jus kidding around with me...I jus did the "ya sure"routine and carried on with the conversation, kept the fone down and forgot about whatever she said...
So it turned out that this engineer friend of my friend( too cumbersome...lets call my friend Sonali for future reference:D) is a blogger and people are falling over eachother to read his blogs(I myself have read them and they are nothing but AMAZING!!!)..so she asked me to read them...after I read them my mind and heart for the first time in unison went "set me up, set me up plzzzzz" but I maintained my calm look and told her "the blogs are great...sooo?" for which she went "why dont u talk to the guy?"...and this was the moment I was waiting for...I took the no. from her as if I din care much and waited for some days(jus to hide my haste ;D) and called up the guy on the pretext of congratulating him for his oh-so-great! writing skills...
Lol! we talked for straight 1 hr, the "pretext"with which I called him never once figured in the conversation...we talked about life(in general!), careers(ya ya!), interests...blah blah blah. The fone was put down only because he had to go somewhere...lol!
So you must be wondering what happened next...well I dunno about the guy and crazily enuf, dunno about me either, but we never really talked again. We went ahead with our daily routines without thinking that the conversation that day was meant to lead somewhere! the blogs kept coming and I kept on reading them...but I never talked to him again. Messaged him once or twice, he replied(and did not reply) to a couple of them...but that was it.
and my friend doesnt understand that why...why if everything went right, did nothing happen??
I think she needs to go to Tekson's again to determine her further course of action...
And as for me, I need to go there too to edit the book a little bit here and there...lol!!